Day 20 - 30 Day Challenge

Get real. Share something you're struggling with right now.

Hmmmm.

I struggle with a lot of things. Like fitting into too tight of pants, or trying on shoes too small, or not being able to eat all of my meal... Life is hard.

But in all reality, I feel like my struggles are normal. You can say you're not struggling with anything, but I wouldn't believe it in a moment. 

The great thing is that I have a choice. I can choose to let me life become laden down with 'struggles' and be unhappy or miserable or caught up in a bunch of nonsense.... Or I can choose to not let these things bother me. 

For example: I'm really struggling with having to accept the fact that I'm in Oklahoma for a while. Some of you may know that I would rather be elsewhere doing awesome design things that I'm just not capable of doing nor have the opportunity to do while I'm in Oklahoma. It's something that I was not thrilled about when we made the decision to stay for a while. 

So the last few months have been interesting. I've gotten a job in Norman, we have found a new place to live, we are getting a dog, and we are really settling in for good. I've realized that while I'm doing this, and trying to stay positive about the opportunities I DO have (getting a job right out of college, having the financial stability I've needed and wanted for a while, getting a cute puppy), I've been feeling resentful that I'm not getting the opportunities I want. 

This is so selfish of me, and I KNOW it, but I am still, deep down, kind of sad that I am not living in a big city doing awesome design things. 

HOWEVER, this trip to San Francisco has opened my eyes big time...

Drumroll please....

I don't think I would actually enjoy living in a huge city like San Fancisco. Maybe Dallas, yes, but somewhere like SF, definitely not.

So this trip has been something I think I needed. To show me that even though I think I want to go big and live big, I really would rather be content and happy in a small town with all of my closest friends. 

And even though I'll be here (in Norman) a while, I still want to maybe go to grad school and get my Master's and experience the world. Who knows, maybe I'll actually get my dream job if I do that! 

So even though I have struggles, I try not to let them get me down. I don't want to live an unhappy life because my expectations (even of myself) are too high.